hallo, i'm on another brief holiday from my beloved pasir laba camp.

i guess i'm well and truly settled into army life now. it's kinda repetitive. i'm just always doing similar stuff everyday, and which i have absolutely no interest in or the are lessons where i'm supposed to learn things that i don't care about. basically, i'm just serving my term. the hate's mostly all gone now, and i'm going to sleepwalk through this two years and hope they fly by as everyone seems to say. hopefully, i'm not going to fuck up majorly and protect my weekends.

the worst feeling to have in camp is still loneliness. to have so many people in your vicinity yet to feel so estranged from them. i just feel very cut off from the world sometimes. like there's nobody outside missing me which is probably true, with the exception of my family of course. times like that make me toss my phone in the cupboard, and not bother looking to see if there are any messages waiting for me. or worse yet, i call home.

i miss my civilian life muchly. and there's field camp and confinement to look forward to this week. what joy!