booking in is easily the most depressing thing in my life right now.
if there's one thing being in army has taught me, (cliche ahead) its really how precious my freedom is. there's literally like a million things that i'd like to do with my life right now that i tragically have absolutely no time to do. army has just completely eaten up my life. i feel like such a fucking zombie in there. i wouldn't know how everyone else feels, but i find myself in this almost emotionless state alot. just listen to instructions, urghh, follow instructions. supposed to go somewhere, urghh, just go wherever i'm supposed to go. but at night, i really miss everything outside so damn much. i've barely been inside 3 months and it's been a fucking eternity for me. i can't stand the lack of freedom and the way everything is done inside is just completely not for me.
on the bright side, i've made some friends already. my sections pretty okay, although i'm taking some time warming up to them. some of my old section mates from bmtc are fucking lucky. they have like 5 people from my old platoon with them. that's like a fucking party. fuck, my old buddy justin's section has like a ton of my good friends from bmt la. anyway, they're treating us a bit more like humans here and even constantly remind us we aren't recruits anymore. i find that damn cute, and amusing too.
i'm so tired of everything already. i just hope this week passes by quickly.
