hallo, i'm on another brief holiday from my beloved pasir laba camp.

i guess i'm well and truly settled into army life now. it's kinda repetitive. i'm just always doing similar stuff everyday, and which i have absolutely no interest in or the are lessons where i'm supposed to learn things that i don't care about. basically, i'm just serving my term. the hate's mostly all gone now, and i'm going to sleepwalk through this two years and hope they fly by as everyone seems to say. hopefully, i'm not going to fuck up majorly and protect my weekends.

the worst feeling to have in camp is still loneliness. to have so many people in your vicinity yet to feel so estranged from them. i just feel very cut off from the world sometimes. like there's nobody outside missing me which is probably true, with the exception of my family of course. times like that make me toss my phone in the cupboard, and not bother looking to see if there are any messages waiting for me. or worse yet, i call home.

i miss my civilian life muchly. and there's field camp and confinement to look forward to this week. what joy!

counting down

2 more weeks to the new sum 41 album. from whatever i've heard so far, it's gonna be whicked.

and i've just realised dave brownsound is gone. so much for racial quotas!

my mom is screaming her head off now. there's a bird in the house.

ooh ooh fear the bird. it is the right hand of satan. it has come to take our souls.

isn't it a drag?

well im leaving home now. it's been a great weekend but my time's come. i'm sick of whining how horrible army is, and how it's killing me. there are people out there with more shit to deal with. there are people in the past who've dealt with shit i cannot even dream of. so i'm going to close the lid on this topic. i'm just going to finish these two years and be done with the damn thing once and for all. it's not so bad anyway, the people in my section have already been upgraded in my life from acquaintances to friends so i guess everything's gonna be okay.

and speaking of the weekend. haha i went out clubbing with my friends, my brother, his friends and my cousin. not bad really, so many people. we were actually supposed to go to my other cousin's party at butter factory but we all got bounced. i just feel happy spending time with all the people that mean alot to me now. and makes me wish even more i could spend even more time with them.

time's so fucking precious now. i'd give everything i have for more time.

there's more than meets the eye

this is only like the most awesomest movie this year. i was on the fucking edge of my seat the whole damn movie. btw, the girl is bloody hot. especially in the car scene. woo woo!

striving for greater height ):

booking in is easily the most depressing thing in my life right now.

if there's one thing being in army has taught me, (cliche ahead) its really how precious my freedom is. there's literally like a million things that i'd like to do with my life right now that i tragically have absolutely no time to do. army has just completely eaten up my life. i feel like such a fucking zombie in there. i wouldn't know how everyone else feels, but i find myself in this almost emotionless state alot. just listen to instructions, urghh, follow instructions. supposed to go somewhere, urghh, just go wherever i'm supposed to go. but at night, i really miss everything outside so damn much. i've barely been inside 3 months and it's been a fucking eternity for me. i can't stand the lack of freedom and the way everything is done inside is just completely not for me.

on the bright side, i've made some friends already. my sections pretty okay, although i'm taking some time warming up to them. some of my old section mates from bmtc are fucking lucky. they have like 5 people from my old platoon with them. that's like a fucking party. fuck, my old buddy justin's section has like a ton of my good friends from bmt la. anyway, they're treating us a bit more like humans here and even constantly remind us we aren't recruits anymore. i find that damn cute, and amusing too.

i'm so tired of everything already. i just hope this week passes by quickly.